That's how many sleeps I have until I'm in my Edmonton bed again, until I'm with my best friends again, until I can get a bear hug from my dad. I haven't been this excited for something in... I can't remember how long. It's funny because I'm not even looking forward to actual Christmas like I would when I was younger, I'm looking forward to Christmas break, to being around the people who really get me, and to be able to sit back and relax for the first time in a long time. My break to-do list will be up soon but for now it's mostly filled with time with my best friends, yoga, sleeping in, and making new memories to bring back to Ottawa with me.
So today I heard a quote, it's actually a part of a youtube video that a guy made that talks about how women's bodies have been objectified and respect towards something so sacred has ultimately been lost among the majority of the male population today. The quote was:
"you should have to touch her heart and her mind first before you touch her body"
I'm not saying I'm a perfect or pure person by any means, but this really struck a chord with me. I don't know when it became okay to expect something on the first date, let alone the first night of meeting someone. I think the way that society has progressed is a disgrace to how it used to be, regarding casual flings. Yes, I believe that everyone deserves to be liberated at some point in their life and live life with no regrets, but only to an extent is this possible. I can't imagine anyone being perfectly fine in having relations with someone who doesn't even know their last name, let alone something about them that actually is meaningful. I'm not talking about the colour of their hair or what school they go to, but something about them as a person. Maybe they love dogs, or went on an exchange to France, or love to do yoga in their spare time. I think by knowing someone on a deeper level, a connection can be made that only adds to the quality of the experience that may or may not come out of it. I'm not saying living life without regrets isn't possible, I'm just saying that it's very unrealistic with anyone who has a moral compass or who possesses a level of self respect that should be universal. I came to the realization this past weekend that there's a difference between regretting something and wishing something had never happened. I believe that I fit better into the category of wishing some events in my life had never happened, but I don't necessarily regret them. I don't wake up every morning feeling like crap because of it, but at the same time if I could go back to that night I might choose a different outcome.
Long story short, I just want all the girls out there to know that it's okay to not want to fit into the norm. Although hookups and one nighters might be what's "cool" these days or something that isn't seen as wrong at all, it's completely honorable to want to hold yourself above it all, and say to yourself that you deserve better: that better being is a guy who is willing to get to know your heart and soul before he even meets your body.
So today has been kind of an off week. Got some marks back that I'm not too happy about, had some weird emotions running through my mind, and overall I just am so glad it's Friday. Lately, I've been finding some little things in life that have been keeping my spirits up, which I think can be accredited to my low level of homesickness, regardless of the fact I'm not loving a lot of stuff going on right now. I decided that every Friday (that I can remember) I'm going to do a little post about the things this week, big or little, that I am thankful for because I'm a true believer that if you focus on the good things in life, life is a lot better than it could be.
What I'm thankful for this Friday:
-My best friend Chrissy
-Zen tea from Starbucks
-Happy bus drivers
-Florence and the Machine (recommended by Chrissy)
-My first gay friend ever, who makes my day every time I run into him on campus
-Isabelle, who I consider my best friend in Ottawa, and her talks that keep me sane
-Sabrina, one of my pledge sisters, who I can tell anything to
-Skype for keeping me in contact with all of my friends/family across the country
-Brightly coloured nail polish
-Being able to go home for the holidays (T minus 17 days)